Date:
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Time: 7:44 AM
The S.O.S in mystery island
it is days like this that makes me miss the old days more
ahh, the good old days...
great my phone plays perfect man like it's waterlogged
damn it all
and as my waterlogged phone plays on my life goes on too
much like the scracthy gritty sound that comes out of the phone now ruining what was a perfectly good song
now there is just one song going through my head and that is hit me baby one more time
god you tell me in my dreams or ....... whatever give me a sign as to WHY THE HELL ARE U DOING THIS TO ME ?!
u go freaking tell my mum that according to her " the treasures are all in the bag, and that the latern in my path was lead, why go astray" ( no god did not go into her dreams, she went on to draw lots for me)
i don't see no frigging faggot lantern in my life
as much as i could see ahead is the grand canyon
ya i am sure u mean the treasures as the shitheads in my class.
yes the path was lit so that you could see me fall face down into a pile of dog poop and laugh at me.
ask me why it's such that i am saying this god and i can tell u.
cause that is exactly what u are doing now, laughing at me with god crap on my face.
why must u make it so that my classmates treat me as such, and that my mum love me so much it just makes me hate myself for doing things behind her back, for lying to her.
u just want me to choose
u just fucking had to have me choosing
u just had to see me squirm my way out of this dilemia u throw me into
i hate those people as much as i hate myself for forcing me to smile at a joke they make at me thinking that i dont know, no scratch that they dont even care if i know.
and i hate myself for making me turn my back on a mum that love me as much and care as much for me, is this how i repay her ?
what do u want me to do
there is no website i can log on to for an answer
there is no prayer that makes u help me out of this because u threw me in it
no one can help me solve this except me
and i am already tired
i really hope i could live up to my standards
but that standard which i grasp just months ago are out of my reach
one step i take towards them is another step away from being myself
please tell me what to do
all in the bag god, all in the bag.
