Date: Saturday, August 11, 2007
Time: 10:09 AM

tried to log in for the past hour and finally got in, damnit....todae ( or rather yesterdae ) was totally stupid so lets not talk about it, but rather let's read something i came up with over the past one hour.....

I still live in that intoxinating past, where smiling seems to natural.....but now, even talking seemed strained, i have heard that great distance had meant nothing in the face of true friendship. i did not want to believe in that,because everything we gone through would have been fake... but gone were the times we would just want to be in each other's company, gone were the times we would just lie contenly on each other's bed in any of our bedrooms to just chat about anything, now everything had had to have a purpose , or it is simply not worth your time... it is not important anymore, nothing really matters.. i heard that losing a friend is hardship, but forgetting them is worse then death... i could not help but think about the happy times we had, is the friendship coming to an end because we had no time for each other, has the time come for us to just walk away and forget each other's faces and down the road in life just suddenly recall this certain person but your hand hesitate over the phone to dial that number again, to hear that familar voice again, to open up to this long forgotten person again.
now we might push the blame around, but at the end, we will just regret that the end came all too soon, i feel sad but i do not have tears, it is not a heart break but a part of me lost , i dun feel like crying but i know crying will be better...at the end we cannot blame any other then ourselves, and hope that we would be able to look back and find you still standing there, when we take a step back, you will smile and take the other steps toward us.

there, that is it, sadly this is not some over imagination on my part but rather a life dedication to a friend of mine, oh well non of my friends reads this anyway... not worth mentioning....