Date: Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Time: 9:50 AM

Long time never post already, have been real busy with many things(school is finally outa my way UFOOOOOOOOOOO) catching up with frens and families, with work, and oh of course my books, why is everyone unhappy about the fact that i read books rather then talk to them over lunch, if any thing causes indigestion it's chit chat not quiet reading.... try to clean up my room when my mum opened up the cupboard and a torrent of clothes fell out and to quote her " melissa things are all over your floor...heck there's no floor" god bless mums and their cleaning obessions. got a new phone, yah finally, my new samsung U 700 complete with it's hyper sensitivity and totally ailen features, which i did not know exist in nokia phone, ya i have stuck with nokia phone for too long, it pratically runs in the family.
went to orchard with bao the other day and ran into this ahma on the way to the heerens wads so special about this ahma is that she sells tissues, and so wad's so special about that you ask, ah that is the golden question she sells them at $2...each. well it just so happens that singapore is currently going through a 7% GST increment but hey even with that i thought tissues will be going at $1.20 for 3 packets i simply dont see any thing so special about a few pieces of chemically softened reused toliet paper combined to give a flimsy manmade material in a not so eye catching plastic coating that will give it the special price tag of $2 each.... apparantly the GST increament has gotten some sharp witted people to gather at orchard to sell tissue papers at a gst inclusive price. but wat i dun get is that this is a ahma ( english translation = granny,grandmother, a mother's mother of either side of the family ) and ahma's are supposed to be gracious and cookie baking and children loving, not try to cheat people of their money as they are not supposed to ( ya i know some of the greatest conman are old , ya old with experience, i dun care about other people's reasons cause this is strictly my mind you are reading that's all ) haiz ahma these days....

Date: Saturday, August 11, 2007
Time: 10:09 AM

tried to log in for the past hour and finally got in, damnit....todae ( or rather yesterdae ) was totally stupid so lets not talk about it, but rather let's read something i came up with over the past one hour.....

I still live in that intoxinating past, where smiling seems to natural.....but now, even talking seemed strained, i have heard that great distance had meant nothing in the face of true friendship. i did not want to believe in that,because everything we gone through would have been fake... but gone were the times we would just want to be in each other's company, gone were the times we would just lie contenly on each other's bed in any of our bedrooms to just chat about anything, now everything had had to have a purpose , or it is simply not worth your time... it is not important anymore, nothing really matters.. i heard that losing a friend is hardship, but forgetting them is worse then death... i could not help but think about the happy times we had, is the friendship coming to an end because we had no time for each other, has the time come for us to just walk away and forget each other's faces and down the road in life just suddenly recall this certain person but your hand hesitate over the phone to dial that number again, to hear that familar voice again, to open up to this long forgotten person again.
now we might push the blame around, but at the end, we will just regret that the end came all too soon, i feel sad but i do not have tears, it is not a heart break but a part of me lost , i dun feel like crying but i know crying will be better...at the end we cannot blame any other then ourselves, and hope that we would be able to look back and find you still standing there, when we take a step back, you will smile and take the other steps toward us.

there, that is it, sadly this is not some over imagination on my part but rather a life dedication to a friend of mine, oh well non of my friends reads this anyway... not worth mentioning....

Date: Thursday, August 9, 2007
Time: 8:48 AM

The bottle shattered, i should have not left it to the winds, or rather left it there without caring.... it smashed agaist the floor, although it had never broke before, everything spilled out and i still cant bare to throw it away, just transfer everything into another container, the long abandoned container, everyday within my sight but never opened, it contains everything that can cause me to cry. never wanted to open it... but i have to add new things every now and then. the 50 cent coin that decided everything and now the spilled glitter stars... it was all over the floor, and although i tried hard to pick everything up, i know, i know that things will never be the same, cause the damage is done, to the container, some day if i were to find another container, can i put all the stars in again ? or will it not be full as everything is not the same, and some pieces of stars had been missed out and left to be swept away, some pieces of stars that are only meant for the container, that cant be transfered away to another ? i dunno, hope is aways there for me, but is hope sometimes enough ?

Date: Monday, August 6, 2007
Time: 8:19 AM

wahaha have not uploaded in like...forever, was so tired out today cause i slpet quite late yesterdae...ya playing maple..went to stupid s'pore for 20,000 waste my money, i mean why the hell would i want to go to my own country ??? and fight some stupid rubbish...haiz anyways, i had a great day todae,namira was so epressive that i had to laugh, and that the presentation she made ( the ba qua one ) was so funny she went around finding people and asking them to help her make the banner concave....oo sweet sherman lent me his spongebob squarepants movie !!! so happy !!! then jp was like lame as ever, ran into bao on the way to the canteen...hmmm lan transfered away today sooo sad ( pouts ) dunnoe when she will be back , brought her a present yesterdae she was so happy, dang i miss her already....jamie was as scary today... she was like melissa join the management, like hell i dun even know i will last the year...much less as a manager...yeah then she bullied me the whole day....i kept getting injuries like the staple went into me thumb, then a splinter...haiz... ah liang was like dun drop the sushi or i wun make any replacement for u...and keep shaking his head when i gave him a long list of sushi...ah bee made me real angry, there i was happily eating my dinner then he came and took the pen from my pocket cause he wanted to do the wastetage...then when the clock strikes 10 he passed the pen back to me when i was halfway through my dinner, and he said time's up the rest i will have to do ah liang was laughing there with ah mun...wad kinda fren saves his frens halfway???.... not so sweet today is he...anyway i was stuffed and have to go do wad i do best, sleep...

Date: Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Time: 8:19 AM

scared me to death, the comp suddenly just blacked out and i thought that jun on is going to get me...whew it is just tat it's low on batt, todae's zoo event is off, ya , never mind it's kinda rush for me anyway...now tat i look back on the past few posts i found a trend , all the events of mine are cancelled for some or other reasons... but not tat i did not enjoy myself today, jamie is here !!! wow was she scary she keep looking at me and laughing, and when i ask her why she say i am cartoon... weird...then there was a new boy today one called andrew i think...there was wrong drinks order then there was these 2 mocha surprise and when jamie had some she wanted the ice cream to go with it, adeline took the whipped cream from the fridge and sprayed some on it and jamie was watchin' all the time, hell tat was funny !! ( finally ) changed my hamster beding today, whao hell it stinks... got an increament today ya i was confirmed so... dunnoe if the ppl there really liked me hmmm, because the date was 1/7/07 on the letter , it's one month already ( diao )...oh well.. maple is calling and i have to compley...